The Vault at Parsons Works

Category: Personal Journals

  • First Race of 2016 – Winning My “Miss Congeniality Medal”

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    So, I made a spur-of-the-moment decision today to go run a quick race to test myself and see where I was at compared to last year.  Oomph, what was I thinking? I decided to run the 2-mile Brodhead Depot Shuffle.  Nothing big or major, just s short 2-mail race, but for someone who has hated…

  • What am I doing wrong?

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    I can’t help but ask myself this at times.  Wondering what I do or don’t do right.  I love my kids with everything that’s in me.  I would lay down my life for them, and I do everything I can to make sure I’m all I can be for them, that I always put smiles…

  • I’ve lost my mind!

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    Ok, so I’m pretty sure I’ve lost my mind.  Ran my first “race” of any type in over 17 years, and clearly, my body is not what it used to be.  Thinking I could lightly jog the measly 2-miles, I started jogging right out the gate, and in less than a half-mile, my left calf…

  • No Tears…

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    How are you supposed to keep from tearing up when a four-year-old, with one hand on your cheek and the other wiping your eye, tell you “no tears” as you’re strapping her into her car-seat? I don’t know where my daughter gets it from, this almost sixth sense or awareness of my emotions and my…

  • Words out of Anger

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    Well, it took nearly seven years to happen, but today was finally the day I heard words I’ve prepared myself to hear for a while.  Out of anger towards me, my son told me that he didn’t want to be here with me and wanted to go back to his mom’s.  While I say I’ve…

  • Oh What a Day Today Would Have Been

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    I thought I had been doing better, and in a lot of ways I have, but today proved to me that I’m not doing nearly as well as I’d like to have myself think.  Today would have been Bug’s first day of preschool.  It’s one of those things that I knew in the back of…

  • Our First Board Game – Chutes & Ladders

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    Tonight Bug and I played her first-ever board game.  I admit to being slightly ashamed of this fact being that she’s 4 and this is the first time I’ve exposed her to an actual, physical board game, but she’s not shown any interest until now.  It wasn’t even my idea, she actually found the box…

  • Another Weekend….

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    Another weekend has come and gone and I’m back to an empty house.  I did my best to stay upbeat with this drop-off, and there were no tears this time, problem is, I’m torn on how to feel about that.  Should I be happy that my baby didn’t cry, that there were no tears or…

  • The Seesaw Affect

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    I rarely get pics sent to me from kids’ mothers, but once in a while I do, and typically they’re a random shot, maybe to show me what they’re doing, or what they wore. Case in point, I get this picture sent to me of my Bug earlier: I can’t help but smile looking at…

  • Just the humming

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    I’ll be the first one to admit I’ve had a rough few days.  The whole thing with preschool open house, and see pictures posted on Facebook by other parents, it just got to me.  I’ve moped around and tried my best to force my way out of it.  Am I there yet?  No, but I’m…